welcome back
I think it's often useful to take things a day at a time..that's how we live our loves anyway...noone can live two days at once. sometimes 'forever' carries with it its own fears and it's own enormity.
I committed to staying sober and clean one day at a time until forever didn't scare me anymore.
you may have not experienced some of the disasters and tribulations that some have here, but you're at least worried enough to post here, and I'd start with that.
Keep those things that bought you back here in mind - and accept that addiction is a progressive thing - almost over night I went from secret drinker to out of control every night everyone knows public drinker.
That's one genie you can't stuff back in the bottle.
I'm glad you're thinking about things before they get too bad...
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