the one thing that really struck me is this,bunny:
"Maybe if I start dating someone who has their sh1t together I'd be ok...he could take care of me. "
i dont think,deep down inside, you believe that to be a solution.
yes,you will get to where you want to be. that will take T.I.M.E.
i believe many of us have a wee bit of a problem with patience, which for me is all about what im thinking.
maybe its the depression i have, or maybe even some other mental disorder, but i can get that way occasionally get that happening.
best thing for me to do is realize its just screwed up thinking, my HP has awesome plans for me, accept it is what it is, and(
)......trudge.
9th step promises
will materialize....sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.