It takes commitment and acceptance to make this work. It sounds like you were looking for a way out, maybe? I'm glad you're back now.
For me, books were the answer and the first three years I was sober was due to amazing books. They weren't books specifically on alcoholism because I knew that wasn't going to be enough. I needed to change myself from the inside out and that's what worked for me:
The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle