Insanity
I had 4 days again, then was going to take my girlfriend out to eat. I wanted to drink all of the sudden so I carefully made a joke to her about drinking. When she didn't seem like she'd be too upset if I did, I knew I was going to.
We went to a restaurant and I realized I didn't have my ID .. they always ask for it. So we left. Went home for my ID and then went to another restaurant. I didn't drink as much as I would have at home but drank enough I shouldn't of been driving. But I did anyway.
Today I bought more beer but am not enjoying it .. I got a book in the mail today, the "Rational Recovery" book I bought a few days ago. It is sitting on the arm of my couch and I'm hoping it contains something that really resonates with me. But I've bought books with high hopes before of learning whatever they had to offer and those books ended up on the shelf for months.
We'll see.