I didn't suffer many blackouts. That I can remember, haha. Often I found the more I drank the more I remembered. The less I drank the foggier I got. And when I mixed booze with pills I'd erase big chunks of sober and drinking memories.
My final big kaboom of a bender to end all benders I blacked out a few times. I was screaming at people to kill me, arrest me, take away my kids. Do not know how I made it back to my hotel room. Woke up covered in bruises. Very, very bad time.
I looked for Beyond the Influence at the library but they didn't have it at that branch, but I've been plodding thru Allan Carr's Easy Way to Stop Drinking and I picked up a book called Happy too. It's the memoir of a young man who suffers brain bleeds and spirals into alcohol and drug addiction and his mother helps him to heal.