My doctor has upped my BP meds because of my anxiety and sadness over this guy. He has put me on lorazepam to help control my stress in order to help the BP. The lorazepam lets me not think. It lets things not matter to me, so I can look at them and not have to think about them. It is great stuff and I wish I could take it 3x a day but it is addictive and I don't want to go there. I am so used to functioning while anxious, and managing in the middle of a panic attack that the feeling the lorazepam gives me is so calm and don't-give-a-damn that I wish I could take it all the time, but I don't want to get hooked on. it. It is a benzo, and thanks to this friend of mine I know a lot about them!
