Hi Drash
I have no experience with meds. I went right to the source and battled my desire to drink.
Whatever method you eventually choose, or what meds you and your Dr might work out, I think you need to have a commitment to recovery, and to change.
I don;t believe there's anyone here who's incapable of change - we may just underestimate the task a little.
If you want change you need to make changes I think and that means lifestyle changes, changes with the way you deal with stress, problems, strong emotions, or even Friday nights.
I think supports really important - and reaching out for that support when you need it is even more important.
If you really feel AA is not for you, there are other alternatives - SMART Recovery, LifeRing, Rational Recovery...all a few mouse clicks away on
Google
You don't sound hopeless to me - you sound like a guy in need of a plan, that's all
There's are some good ideas here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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