I'm so sorry that you have lost your son. I tried to believe that my exABF was in a better place, but I just wanted him here.
Your son has been released from his battle with this beast.
He truly is at peace ... right now.
I will keep you in my prayers. That you find solace in your granddaughter and strength to raise her or help with her during her life. She is the light that will continue to shine for you.
Hugs to you dear momma. You suffered alongside your son. There is no greater love.