My Beautiful Son is Gone

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My Beautiful Son is Gone

February 13, 2016 is a day I will never forget. My worst fear is what I'm living. My beautiful 25 year old son left me. As much as everyone tells me he's in a better place, I still cannot see living life without him. I just always had hope that he would be one of the lucky ones. I miss everything about him. My son Angel was so loving and affectionate. I have no say in how all this turned out and I feel trapped. He leaves an 8 year old daughter that he adored, and she adored him back. Why? Although in the back of my mind, I knew that death is a possibility, as a mother, I still believed in the best outcome. Not my son, my beautiful son.
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Old 02-25-2016, 09:14 AM
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Oh, I am so sorry, Lotusangel. I wish there was something to say to make your hurt easier, but I know there isn't. Just know that we care about you and are praying for all who love your beautiful son. (((HUGS)))
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Old 02-25-2016, 09:15 AM
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Lotusangel...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. Words fail. My hope is in the days and weeks to come, you allow us to support you in any way you feel appropriate and helpful. You're not alone, even though you may feel that way. You've got us. You'll always have us.
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Lotusangel, I am so very, very sorry.

Words are inadequate.
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Old 02-25-2016, 09:39 AM
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I am so sorry for the loss of your son.
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Old 02-25-2016, 09:45 AM
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So very sorry for your loss!!
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Old 02-25-2016, 09:53 AM
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The loss of a child is something no one can even remotely understand unless it has happened to them.

Tears are running down my face knowing only too well the pain you are suffering. There is not a day that goes by that my heart isn't breaking.

A few words of wisdom:
  • It does eventually get better. Never OK but it doesn't consume your every waking second
  • You can be happy again if you let yourself
  • Try to be grateful for what you have
  • Professional help
  • Grief support group
  • Don't isolate. No matter how bad you feel be in the company of others
  • Prayer
  • Living in the day

My heart and prayers go out you and I'm sure my daughter and your son will meet in the afterlife
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Deeply sorry for the loss of your son.

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It brings tears to me eyes to read this. I pray for you and your family.
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Old 02-25-2016, 10:25 AM
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I am so sorry, I will pray for you and your family. My deepest and most sincere condolences. It is an awful disease Gentle hugs to you...
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((Lotusangel)) My deepest condolences, I'm so very sorry.

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Old 02-25-2016, 10:31 AM
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My heart hurts for you. I am the mother of a 23 year old addict daughter and that's my worst fear as it is all of us. I will keep you in prayer. I won't say it gets easier, because I'm sure it does not. Love, Elissa.
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Old 02-25-2016, 10:35 AM
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I'm sorry for your loss...
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Old 02-25-2016, 10:50 AM
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LotusAngel, I am sending a big embrace of peace and love your way--for you, your granddaughter, and the rest of your family. I have always appreciated your support and comments on this page. I hope we can provide you with the same now.

This kind of tragedy lives inside all of us here--even in good spells we find ourselves wondering "what if" and yet when it happens, I am not sure any one of us could really ever be "ready." I hope you are surrounded by loving people and have some time to regroup. I also really hope your granddaughter is okay--she's fortunate to have you.

Peace, fellow momma in the struggle, peace to you.
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Old 02-25-2016, 11:04 AM
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Wow Lotusangel, I am so extraordinarily sorry for this horrible loss. Many hugs and prayers to you and your family.
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I am so sorry! Sending prayers for you and your family.
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It breaks my heart each time we lose one of our addicted loved ones here.

I am so very sorry dear Lotusangel, my prayers go out for you and your family as you endure this tragic loss.

Your son knew how very much he was loved, I believe he knows today.

Huge hugs from my heart to yours.

Rest in peace dear child.

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Dear Lotus Angel, I am so sorry to hear this devastating news. It is every parent's worst fear. Sending prayers for you and your dear grand daughter that you will have peace and joy again in your life.
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I am so terribly sorry for your loss. There are no words.

Many, many tight hugs.
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I'm so sorry Lotusangel. Just utterly, staggeringly sorry. My heart aches for you so. My prayers to you, your family and to your son.
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