Quick update: thanks everyone for the replies and pm's. After I logged off SR it feels like I was able to get maybe 2 or 3 hours of sleep. I'm feeling a bit tired and washed out this morning and am running late for work, so my response will be a bit brief. I needed to hear that it's my response and actions that define my sobriety, not how I feel or the thoughts I have. I'm also going to try urge surging to be more mindful about some of the thoughts I've been having the last couple of weeks. My approach has been to sit back with a more passive stance of denial instead of acknowledging them and then letting them go. I think it's also important that I'm sharing about what's going on. Just talking about things and getting them in the open has a way of starting to clear the air.