MTS, the story about your Mom made me smile, not just the story but how much it must have meant to her for you to here & appreciate it, THAT is beautiful!
Well, I worked my first day yesterday at the care giving facilitie & called early this am & told them I would not be back. I worked a 12 hr day shift & was so exhausted when I came home, not so much physically, but emotionally. They wanted to train me as a med aid, despenci ng medication to 15 residence, one of which I would do at 7am after being up all night (ridiculous...I know from working with adults with developmental disabilities that that sort of practice is an accident waiting to happen...& one where a life would be at stake. They would have the oncoming staff administer meds.....not a person who had been up all night & had 15 other things to do & document before they went off duty. This is a brand new, beautiful facility but I see very understaffed (bet the owners are walking away with a pretty penny every month) yet they do not want to pay to have the needed staff there & they were hinting that I would also be in charge of keeping the young ones in line of doing there caregiving. Anyway, complete overload of responsibility right off the bat & I could see I would be the fall guy & too much on my shoulders. it was pretty clear that I would be put on the night schedule & never get out of it. My day with the residents was good though, something I could Definately do, even the "dirty work", but not there. FYI, I know you have seen me fail at several emplyment opportunities this las 6 months, but honestly I have NEVER had a problem with being employeed, even in my worst drinking day.
I did drink in my 90th day Sunday....went out to my Nephews where my Niece & her kids have been living to help clean up while my Niece is in jail. I knew it wS bad out there, but didn't know how bad it was until I was out there. Terrie conditions, infested with mice, garbage everywhere, my brother encountered rats outside while cleaning up. It has been 17 years since I used methamphetamine & never did my kids & I live like that...that was my ticket to a drink I guess, had a few more when I got home last night after making decision I wouldn't take this job. My big brother was here today, asked if I would help send a message to the jail to my Niece..... That he would be there for her & to support her in getting treatment for herself & her kids. The father is around, but using & on probation for prison & my brother finally went to Children's Services & let him know the situation. My Niece is already hateful towards him & there is a good chance she will get out & either overdose or harm herself....her brother who lives out there filed a restraining order against her today...very hard for them both, but asy brother sat here on my couch & cried today (this is a burley 30 year Alaskan Fisherman & Grizzly Hunter Guide) I reassured him he was doing the right thing for his Grandkids, who have been living with this, that my Niece & the kids Dad has a choice about how they are living, but those little ones don't & that he was doing the right thing & that he is & should be in fear for his life when the Father & his Daughter find out he went to Children's Services. His Ex wife, the Mother of my Niece & Nephew died about 6 years ago of what was said to be Mad Cow Disease....(a whole mother story there) but as he sat and cried on my shoulder today, I told him she was not just my sister in law & then my ex sister in law, but my friend & that I knew she would want He & his Son to do what they are doing....protect those kids & force her to get some help. Tearful, emotional Day.