i'm not doing it
for me. i'm doing it
because of me.
don't expect me to explain how i mean that. it just popped into my head right now. though it's nothing new, really.
i just couldn't
be that anymore.
well, there!
that's all cleared up now!
what you say, Obladi, about it being your role to be a whole person...wanting to be a whole person, wanting and needing that so desperately, and seeing that i wasn't, that i couldn't be while staying where i was, THAT was the clarity that made me stop.