I know it's hard Up when you get stuck to try & pull ourselves Up...sometimes we need help with it. I don't know your situation or the stumbling blocks in your way but I can't help but wonder if there is help you might not know is there? I hope you don't stop posting here. Hang in here with us, maybe share what's going on so we can support you best we can. I'm calling it a day here, past midnight & the latest I've stayed up in a long time. Watched Slingblade & did my nails.....darn right exciting night.