Hurting bad
Will i had the cops show up today looking for my old room mates wife and something told me it was,nt good.They are devorsed.But anyhow the cop left and so i phoned his ex and told her the cops were on the way to see her and i did,nt think it was good news and to phone and let me know later what happened because he lives in another city.I might as will as he was my best friend and a very old drinking friend of mine i dont mean he was old he was 40.They said they found him this morning i guess by the couch and it looked like he had a massive heart attack and died.You see i quit drinking and he could,nt and we had a fight last fall and had,nt spoken since cause i wouldnt talk to him because i wanted a sober life and he didnt and i thought that may be best to part as friends.So i,m hurting real bad right now and the thought has crossed my mind to go get drunk.I,m REALLY SCARED 6 months is a long time to not drink and to waste it,but if i ever had an excuse i think it is now.I know stinkin thinking going on.I guess this is another test for me....