Cali.....I understand your need to encase your m emories of him in a golden halo....
The intensity of the cascade of bonding and sexual hormones of early attraction will do that for you.....
Meeting twice a month is like dating...and it actually reinforces these feelings.....
But....let me tell you...that facing the daily reality of life (especially with an alcoholic)....the whisperings and confessions of love spoken on a pillow will fade like dew in the m orning sun......
Check it out.....
dandylion