Cali89......he is doing you such a great favor.....some women in your situation hang on for years.
He has been drinking from the beginning....you never rally knew him...because, he has been controlled by booze the entire time. He doesn't even know himself, can't remember half of what he does...can't care for his basic needs...and doesn't want to get help.
Even if he did..it would take years for any lasting changes.
Love doesn't hurt this much.
You should take this opportunity to learn every thing you can about alcoholism and attend alanon for your own development....
I fear that, otherwise, that you will follow the same pattern into another similar relationship.....This is almost always what happens......
dont let it happen to you!!!
The one book that I would recommend to you is "Co-deoendent No More"....I think a lot will resonate to you......
dandylion