Originally Posted by
thomas11 
It't my nature. And its kind of complicated. I've had very important people in my life make "absolute" statements or promises while sober and while intoxicated and not follow through with those promises. It made me think less of them, permanently. I'm old school, a man is only as good as his word. So I avoid boxing myself in and rarely make absolute statements. If I was to say, "I will never let alcohol touch my lips again for the rest of my life", and 2 years from now I have complete meltdown and go on a bender, well now I've broken that promise and what are those people who I made that statement to going to think of me. They are going to think I'm an untrustworthy failure. And a liar. And weak. Right? And the mean ones are going to rub it in my face to make me feel even worse because it makes them feel good to make others feel horrible about themselves.
If your nature is to not commit to things because you are afraid of what other people will think, then you need to change your nature Thomas. You have absolutely zero control over other people, and that's been a recurring issue for you ever since you've been here on SR. You cannot control your family, you cannot control your friends, you cannot control what other people think or say, especially what the "might" do 2 years from now.
You made black and white commitments to your customers for years - and followed through on them. So to say that it's your nature to not commit to things is not true....except in the case of your addiction. Think about that.