thomas11

It't my nature. And its kind of complicated. I've had very important people in my life make "absolute" statements or promises while sober and while intoxicated and not follow through with those promises. It made me think less of them, permanently. I'm old school, a man is only as good as his word. So I avoid boxing myself in and rarely make absolute statements. If I was to say, "I will never let alcohol touch my lips again for the rest of my life", and 2 years from now I have complete meltdown and go on a bender, well now I've broken that promise and what are those people who I made that statement to going to think of me. They are going to think I'm an untrustworthy failure. And a liar. And weak. Right? And the mean ones are going to rub it in my face to make me feel even worse because it makes them feel good to make others feel horrible about themselves.