I can't do it
Having a bad Monday. My father started telling me how I am an embarrassment. I am almost 40 and I don't have anything. I lost my job last year, and got depressed, just couldn't look for another job. Since moving to the city I don't know anyone and I have no friends. I don't even have a gf. Tried dating at my last job, but then it came back to bite me and I got fired. Everything my father told me I already know, but I don't know how to change my life.
I don't know how to get out of this hole that I am in. I felt really really bad about what he said. Made a split decision to buy a 5th so I could make it to tomorrow without freaking out anymore or doing anything to myself I would regret later.