It's only a question you can answer. Look deeply within yourself, in the parts you keep hidden from yourself most of the time. It's a frightening prospect to search within oneself for your own truth.
From a personal perspective I found myself asking these same questions this afternoon. For a few hours I felt lost. But boy am I glad I kept myself feeling lost rather than frantically trying to galvanise myself into action-the easiest, most tested way how-by caving. By riding the storm I feel so content now. I know I lived my truth. And it feels like my soul is singing to me now. Ahhhh wonderful.
Hang in there, you're here, that speaks volumes about what you truly believe.