My version of alcoholic thinking often doesn't explicitly involve alcohol these days, but it's the same twisted style:
- Start with the desire to do something that's intrinsically bad for me. (Why? I dunno. This is the most alcoholic part.)
- Rationalize the wrong action in terms of all the consequences to myself and other people. "They don't care anyway." "I deserve it."
- Use the results of the bad action to fuel the next cycle of rationalization: "See, they left me." "I'm beyond help."