I agree with all responses so far. To me, Alcoholic thinking is waking up in the morning saying "I am never going to drink again" to at the end of the work day heading to get more booze hoping to numb whatever reality you are facing to wake up to the reality of your situation still being there and saying again "I am never going to drink again" to going to get more booze at the end of the work day, etc. It is a vicious cycle that I have been doing for way too many years and unfortunately, too few make it out of.