Kelly,
I get it! Wow. Even with many changes in our lives, with my husband working away from home and with no longer using the same bank accounts, it wasn't long ago I was still so very relieved when the money was gone and there was a slight reprieve and my husband was seemingly somewhat lucid for a short bit.
Seems like a very normal feeling.
The rest of the stuff in my life I'm working on, one day at a time, as I'm able. Awareness, acceptance, action. Used to be scary stuff, yet by breaking it down and having others help me see how they did it, it all became doable. My husband is currently working a recovery program and is sober, but that's the tip of the iceberg and I actually had to ramp up my support network to deal with that.
Still... so very normal feelings!!
Ktf