I drank.
I went out last night and drank. I started real slow but ended up greedily drinking. Was really drunk and was sick when I got home ( I haven't been sick in years from drinking so my almost 5 months of sobriety was probably the reason. I'm now deeply depressed and angry with myself.
Normally when I drink I don't get sober again for a long time but I'm going to try right away. I don't want to drink but I didn't really want to drink last night either.