I dont know everything and i dont think anyone here has it figured out. But i can tell you in early recovery you should try to avoid testing yourself. Dont walk by the old liquor store! Take the long way home. Your not always going to have the thought process of no urges.
Based off of your text it seems you either cook or appreciate good food? I have been a chef for 16 years and its a passion and a hobby to create wonderful food and with the finished product being a wonderful creation. I got far away from that feeling when i let alcohol control my life. Now i make a thought out meal 4 or 5 nights a week and it now gives me great relief and self worth to remember my skill set and seeing value in my skills.