yeap, it dosn't happen over night.
First things first.
Don't put the cart before the horse.
I don't envy anybody...but at one piont in my life,
I couldn't stay clean and sober no matter how much I tried.
I don't choose to be an alcoholic.
I wish I could drink like the rest of the world, but it's not the case.
I had to hit bottom and live thur hell just to get to that piont.
Not in a million years,did I considered myself to be an alcoholic.
Being sober is the most important thing in my life.
Without sobriety I have nothing.
Even if I did, I would eventually destroy or loose it, if I wasn't sober.
My track record shows.
This is not an instent fix, as my behavoirs as before.
I'm a sick person trying to get will.
Staying clean and sober and working the 12 steps is the hardest
thing I've done in my life. Thank you God there's help
and I don't have to do it alone.
I strive to be a better person as best I could each day.
Looking, feeling, living life squarely in the face ain't easy.
On somedays I can accomplish much and be a nice guy.
On other days the best I could do is not drink...and those would be
the most challeging days.lol