Hi, Sarah! You sound determined, so ride that wave of determination all the way to sober freedom!
I'm not AA, but I think I get your gist about the need to put sobriety in the Top Priority position. I'm right there with 'ya, sista!!
About the relationships... I've lost some too, including a man I was crazy about. We just need to take it on faith that many if not all of our damaged relationships will heal in time and more meaningful relationships will come into our lives....
....if we stay sober!
Stay on the horse! You can do this!