Hey all. There's such a lot of good stuff here from you all.
I'm exhausted and need to go to bed. I hope I feel better tomorrow morning and have some time to read and digest these posts.
Came home dog-tired but wired from a cocktail event my employer put on this evening. I found it very stressful - it was a long night because we were hosting. Got there early and had to stay to the end. Three hours of being "on", making small talk, making sure to circulate etc. I realised the only thing I looked forward to with evenings like these was the chance to drink. Without drinking, it felt like actual hard work (funny that). I actually would have liked to have a drink to take the edge off.
I'm very tired and very stressed and quite bothered by it all especially the thought that I would have liked a drink. I feel like it's a trigger I haven't adequately planned for. I need to sleep on this.
I'm going to bed now. My brain feels sufficiently unwound I think I'll go straight to sleep.
Good night all. See you all tomorrow.