he wasn't there for you when you needed him after losing your child. Seems like one of those hurts that is so deep and shows you who he is.
He sounds completely like my now deceased ex husband (problem drinker).
Controlling. Could not go to the things that I wanted to. Sometimes not to the things that I needed to. Listened to my conversations. Critiqued my clothes. Hair. Makeup. Choices.
I still feel sick to my stomach when I remember.
Don't think of it as pulling the trigger - think of it as freeing your heart, mind and body to be whom you want to be and build a new life as a free woman.
Hugs mo3b
Joie