yeah it was not easy. I sobered up and saw the extent of the financial mess i was in and it felt like i was drowning and gasping for air and i was utterly horrified and panic stricken about what i had done.
I guess i had stopped the leak tho on the whole 15-20 bucks at least every other day on booze. but i had no idea how i'd fix the mess.
i dunno for me i was more panic stricken then guilty about it. I kinda figured whats done is done i was in a dark place i was sick i needed help etc.. cant really blame myself for it to be honest.
but looking forward seeing that mess was mine and mine to solve was pretty scary.
i got it all fixed tho in time and it seemed impossible to me at one point. But I figured it out.
just remember your sobriety and sanity have to come first. the rest will fall into place after that.