I'm sorry Thumpalumpacus. That is kind of where I am now- waiting to see what he's going to do if anything, and deciding if I should stay or leave. Both choices are scary. I'm happy to hear you are working on getting your life back. I bet the woman you loved went through a lot of torment when she finally decided to walk away. It isn't an easy choice for us either. I hate alcohol so much! I wish you peace and happiness and to once again find love one day.