dear jt,
sounds like you're on the right track in your recovery. i know it's easy to not read odat and all the daily readings and sometimes i let them build up and then i pick up the books and say why did i wait? you've got a lot on your plate and maybe this confirmation that u aren't crazy will put you closer in touch with your hp. i too,have to have things hit me square in the forehead before i accept my instincts were right all along, unfortunately. i hope this discovery gives u more serenity and peace and strength.
the fact that recovery is in your family gives u a leg up from god, even your son's repeated attempts to get straight are all reflections of recovery. i know from your posts how close and loving u r with your family, look upon this revelation as important for your recovery. big hugs and many prayers for u my friend and family
hugs from sugar