I think there is definitelysomething to be said about coming from a place of having had enough, meaning it and wanting it to be so. When I drank I always wanted to drink which becomes drinking even when you don't want to. I somehow put my foot down one morning a couple of years ago and said enough, done , no more ever , whether I want to or not. Sometime between then and now the wanting to stopped, can't say when for sure, not a real specific date or time , just a realization that even phantom desire was gone. Hang in there , meaning 'enough' can be enough, it just may take time but almost without fanfare you find yourself in a new normal.
Enjoy your thread and your writing, rooting for ya
