Originally Posted by
Golfdad 
I do not want to become a non social loser who because of a weakness lets the weakness cause missing a lifetime of memories
I have traveled for many years and meet many, many people in my lifetime. The strongest group I have ever met is those folks who are in solid recovery. Most are anything but non social losers, funny.........
Alcoholism and addiction are not a "weakness" - ours is not a moral failure my friend.
Here's some suggested reading - it may help you to understand the physiology of alcoholism if you'll read it - Under The Influence - Milam and Ketchum