Thanks all.......I am going, not going is not an option, I need to live my life with my family and friends. I do not want to become a non social loser who because of a weakness lets the weakness cause missing a lifetime of memories and precious time with family and friends! That's not living and if I had to decide on being a non social shut in vs drinking again... i would chose a beer to be honest.
So with that said I plan on not drinking this week end and reaching my short term goal of a dry january and then decide from there on the pros and cons.
Again i am doing this to get healthy and test my abilities, from there I will need to assess the results and decide next steps.