Originally Posted by snowvelvet

Day 69.

I've been trying to post and it keeps timing out on my phone.

I don't want to drink. I just feel so bloody low. I have very little money. I've had to move into my parents. I am afraid to find a job again, as I cannot deal with the rejection. I used to have a fab career. I screwed it all up.

I don't want to fight anymore. I cannot live with what I've done. I just want out. I'm sick of going to bed each day and hoping it will get better. It doesn't. At least it doesn't get worse.