Can somewhat relate. I was addicted but quit 5 years ago. Back then my husband had no problems with drugs or alcohol and was supportive of me. But fast forward, he developed a dependency on prescription meds and adds alcohol. I find him annoying andit makes me say to myself 'was I like that?' Im sure I annoyed him and think I behaved worse. It hasnt rekindled my desire to use, if I had any hidden thoughts they have been removed and its made me stronger. But its not attractive on him so I limit our interactions if hes under the influence so it doesnt leave me feeling negative.