OT Grief Dreams
This whole learning how to deal with grief sober has some interesting twists. Since my daughter's death I have had grief dreams. These are dreams where the full impact of her loss is felt. In the dreams there is uncomfortable sobbing and pain.
The first few of these totally toasted me emotionally but now I see them as a safety valve.
People more or less expect you to be OK
You look normal and act normal so you must be normal. Unfortunately this is not remotely the case. It is sort of like trying to act normal when you are drunk.
In order to be "kind of" on the planet you have to stuff the grief away. I see now that while the dreams are very painful they are a necessary part of healing and provide a release that can't be done in normal life.