OldTomato

I hope I'm posting this in the right place. This is my second time typing this out, the first try turned into a bit of an essay.

I drank a lot on my way home from work yesterday (I carry a water bottle filled with vodka around with me) and had to be helped home by a stranger as I could barely walk, I'd fallen over a few times and could barely stay on the path. I've decided (again) that enough is enough, but this time I'm thinking about giving visiting the doctor a go.

I drink 330ml of vodka on an average day, mostly straight out of the bottle but I have it in Diet Coke while I'm working. I have to drink at work because my hands shake badly if I don't, and I work in retail so I've had a lot of remarks and funny looks from customers over it. On a bad day I'll drink a lot more and the amount is gradually increasing. I throw up most mornings and get diarrhea, as soon as that's passed I'll be drinking again. I've had a lot of colleagues speak to my manager about how they can smell alcohol on my breath.

I'm in my early twenties and I've been drinking every day for almost a year now. I've tried to quit a few times, the longest I've made it is 6 days before I give in to cravings. I've even tried throwing out all my alcohol but I've just gone out and bought more. I'm stuck for things to do - and I can't keep going on as I am, I feel ill all the time and I spend all my money on alcohol, I'm barely even capable of working and I'm extremely fortunate to still be employed.

Does it sound like going to the doctor is the right option? I really want to quit for good this time, but the withdrawal symptoms make my job difficult and even if I can get past those the cravings are too much for me. I'm worried that I might not be taken seriously because I'm young...

Thanks for reading!