I will be back - with a clear head.
Thank you, all. I feel like sometimes I wish for someone to be stronger than me in the family (like when I was married and had someone to hug me and tell me everything would be okay - I felt like I could let go of things) and now I don't have that anymore - I'm in the position of having to be the strongest one all the time. Between my kids at difficult ages, and my aging parents who can't always handle things- I'm always the one who has to have it together. The stress is too much for me at times. I will return to the thread. I am not drinking anymore; so this is it. But I have to put myself together again - tomorrow. Catch you all soon and thank you...