Originally Posted by
Shantilove 
I know I need to be strong and look anxiety in the face instead of running from it.
I'm just scared. I don't even know who I am anymore.
I guess you could think of as "needing to be strong", but that kind of thinking could be part of the problem. I can only speak from my own experience:I could do a lot on my own strength and fortitude; my own will power...but there came a point in which my own strength just wasn't cuttin' it. I needed to admit how weak I really and truly was. I don't know that it was STRENGTH so much that helped me face my fears/anxiety as it was to stop FIGHTING -to disarm myself. I've come to REALIZE with a bit of sober time that my alcohol use/abuse had become a part of my "arsenal" of weapons I had stored up over the years and it was not a very good weapon. Hang in there. We are rootin' for ya!