I am starting again here. The last time I felt that everyone was worse than me because they drank every day or had a DUI or something that I didn't do. At time I still feel that way but I realize after 30 years that my relationship with alcohol is the problem. It's how I feel about it.
If I really get honest I realize that I have done a lot of things in the last 10 years that I would have done 20 years ago. Driving drunk with my kids, hiding booze, being loaded in front of my kids, lying a lot to everyone myself included.
As time continues your rational thoughts are constantly overtaken.
We all know deep inside what our relationship is with the drug we choose. You just have to listen to that voice and believe it.