Went meandering with the dog. No stars tonight and I found myself being triggered. Old pattern: come home, have a few shots and change clothes, walk the dog, back home for the balance of the bottle, pass out. So I took some deep breaths and simply acknowledged where the trigger was coming from. Knowledge is power, right?
Came inside and cleaned the kitchen, read some SR, and I'm better though still feeling a bit anxious. It will pass. And now I can walk in the kitchen without going "ick!"
I think if I need to explore that teenage drinking stuff it will be a different thread because I'd like for this one to be more about what it is now, not so much about all that came before.
Thanks again for being there.
This truly is a wonderful community.