It's like I want trouble, I'm so confused, I'm lonely and discontent, I get a chance and I **** it all up, all was asked of me was to stay sober and I couldn't even do that. I'm a failure and I feel it. It hurts badly, I know it's my own fault and still I can't stop, I want to , believe me but the devil is winning, he's telling me to drink, you'lll feel better... No he's lying to me and I feel it...