I don't have any outside support, no. I haven't managed to get to any Alanon meetings since the 2 I attended during the summer - I work evenings so it's not really possible. Therapy is not an affordable option for me. I haven't told friends/family as I doubt they would understand. Actually that's not completely true, in a moment of desperation, I told my mum. However she is also married to an alcoholic and is in complete denial about many things. We had a very superficial chat about it (she asked me if I was nagging him too much!) and after that I stopped mentioning it to her and she's brushed it under the carpet.
I don't know what I should do now - should I apologise for my words as biminiblue said? Even if I do, he will probably say the apology doesn't matter as he now knows how I truly felt about him. He's wrong about this anyway - I loved him and had reached my limit, that's all. I didn't stop loving him.