start as you mean to go on
They lie, they tell you what you want to hear, they panic when they think you've rumbled them, they get lazier with the hiding and then they get nasty when you find them out.
I went back to my abf after 18 months apart believing his desire to stay sober after I told him i couldn't be with him if he was drinking. This was 5 months ago. Then little signs started happening, then more...
What has saved me is my journal. I wrote honestly in there and reading back over it all the evidence is there.
I'm so disgusted with him I've blocked him on all messaging things and never want him in my life again. Toxic.
I feel much happier and have learnt a lot about myself these past 3 years. I'm thankful for those lessons. Never ignore your gut feeling and never keep it in.
So today I'm stepping into a new future that keeps toxicity out and lets good things in.