Oh honey...is there any family members you can go stay with for a while (if he won't leave)? You need your rest and this just creates more stress that you and the baby don't need...you mentioned you live in fear...has he verbally or physically abused you? There are several people in this forum that can help with that issue...I know what it is like and it is not easy...if I were you I would try to stay with someone for a while until you figure out how to get out of this relationship...