Originally Posted by
Muunray 
... I will learn to honor myself.
This sounds like a great place to start your sobriety. No better way to honor ourselves than by giving ourselves a sober life. I know I'm glad I've chosen it, and if you choose it too, you won't regret. It's hard in the beginning, but definitely worth it!
I hope everything with your surgery turns out okay, Muunray. Keep us updated.
Delfin