.I don't want to invest more time into this relationship. I've never felt at ease in it because of the drinking and now he wants MORE time from me. I already know that promises are likely just words at this point and how much longer do I have to gamble to see if he's really going to improve?
I feel so tired and guilty and he cries and cries on my shoulder about how much he loves me and wants ONE more chance...I'm so confused and hurt...I just kinda want approval to leave. Which makes me feel dumb...
Look, your life is very, very important....and short....and it is up to you to make the most of it. Sounds like your guts have been pushing you to do something for a long time. We who choose alcoholics seem to block that out - to our own detriment! Sounds like it might be time to listen to yourself - and your needs!
(((HUGS))) to you - we know your pain well!!