enfin: It's great what's happening. Congratulations! It sure won't be perfect at the beginning or any time. Life's not perfect. But from the sound of it it's going to be better for you than it ever was and not worse than it ever was (which was the way things were heading if you hadn't managed to turn it all around). You will now feel your true self coming back. It will take a while. And your AV (It's still there; it will always be there) getting weaker and weaker. Keep it in its cage. You'll hear it now and then but ignore it. Strengthen the rational part of your mind and feel the real you coming back. Give your husband time to heal, his love for you to return. Be patient. One day at a time.
W